Posted by
Lance Cordill on Thursday, May 14, 2009 1:07:15 PM
Like a true bonehead, I took out student loans for both undergrad and grad school only to find that the majors that I selected (BS Sociology & MSED Secondary Education) were never going to grant me access into a career that I would ever legitimately be able to responsibly pay off what I originally borrowed ($20-30K) during my lifetime. This original amount is now at $107K. And, if anyone out there thinks that this is ever going to be paid off, they are crazier than I have ever been! Sure, there is more to the story than what either data space or patience allows here. But, damn it, I (literally) went to college in order to become an indentured servant for the rest of my life. In all, there was never really any true hope that I would ever be blessed enough to live out the dreams of my youthful idealism (having a wife, children, two cars in a covered insulated garage, a home, property complete with a pond, little fishies and a nice warm bed covered by a paid for house). Even spending 15-years in the US military did nothing to dent this insurmountable mountain of debt that sucks the very life out of me daily. Bottom line is this: "Lance Cordill screwed up - no one twisted my arm to volunteer for the loan programs I participated in. But, the ability to pay them off is NEVER going to happen." Would have been nice to have had a different life. But, now, the very education that I received, is now my achilles heel. I can not get a job, a security cleaence. One day, I will need care. I will grow old like everyone else. I will become a ward of the state. Once a loser, always a loser. And no positive mental attitude tape (AKA, Anthony Robbins, TD Jakes et al) can ever change that. If they could, this would have happened a long time ago. So, at an interest rate of over $5K a month, soon to turn $6K, then $7K, and so on, I have to wonder: "Exactly, what is to be the remedy for such a situation? It clearly is beyond my ability to grasp such a solution." Suicide is out. Volunteering for more war is out. Going beserk and allowing law enforcement to finish my presence here on this planet is out. Going out of my way to injure someone or commit an illegal act is out. Any ideas out there? I'm truly open for suggestion. Kinda sucks having one thing daily to look forward to in life, "This continuing sucking sound of perpetual poverty which fill my eardrums and stains my soul". God Bless, America.